Friday I went with three friends for a trip to the winter magic of the mountains of New Jersey. We had snow, music, good food, and great conversation. Later on our way to dinner we lost our way, and I noticed the anxiety rising in the car and decided to take care of my own. I got anxious, not because I was afraid that we wouldn’t find our way, but because I was afraid that the good time we were having was going to get ruined and kill the celebration. I proceeded to do what I always do when I’m afraid that the boat is going to rock and sink.
I started praying that we would find our way and won’t loose our celebration.
I started to get frustrated, impatient and critical.
I lost my cool and attacked the driver.
But then I opened my heart, asked for compassion and breathed with ease. I then returned to love & to sacred celebration. I also had a new insight. Our biggest loss in life is the loss of love. All our triggers, why we get upset and hurt, and stressed triggers our existential trauma of the loss of love.
When you take care of yourself, compassionately witnessing your emotional vulnerable truth, you can connect to the bigger truth of your being and return to love.
In sacred celebration,
Samuel Jakob Kirschner