Love ‘This’ all the way….
Last night I subbed for a friend who teaches a breathing meditation class for many years, and who didn’t feel well. He is a brilliant and beloved teacher, and the people who showed up where notified that he wasn’t going to be there and that I would substitute for him. The topic of the class was Loving All The Way, and at the end I showed a video of our work together on a recent trip in South Sudan, teaching refugees and people with PTSD how to heal their lives by breathing, moving & celebrating consciously. The energy was high, and I was prepared to make some announcement about how the participants could continue to practice. It was the part of the workshop that’s also referred as – ‘marketing’. The old question under marketing is “how can I profit from that?”. Something in me always resists this question, and I judge it as self-centered and disconnected from my raison d’être. But I also need to take care of myself, and I live in America, the country of commerce, where “everyone is out to make a profit, so what’s wrong with you?”. I went through the motions and told the participants how they could work with me, but felt out-of-place. I was triggered by the anxiety of my ‘displaced-refugee’, who feels a deep loss of being displaced and belonging nowhere. Experienced as I am, it took a couple of hours to breathe-love-in-2-the-displaced-refugee to come to feel as I do right now – grateful for the experience and Loving-my-life-all- the-way.