Do you know the feeling of loving someone so much, and for such a long time, and yet, repeatedly getting hurt by them & feeling disrespected & unsafe… Doubting if they really see you… hear you… recognize you… care about you… Feeling like “Why are you being so ugly… so mean… so unfair?” Feeling hopeless & powerless… “I wish you would disappear“…. “If I never see you again, it would be too soon…”. Even wishing they were dead.
But then, you see them again… you’re stuck with them… you may be married to one… they maybe a family member… your neighbor… or the authority that’s governing you in your own country. It could be someone who is running for office, that you may feel is so dangerous, so offensive & so clueless.
You’re maybe trying to forget about this… make light of it… deny it… avoid it… ignore it, or make excuses for them… But, that feeling doesn’t go away. It just gets pushed away, deeper inside, and you may be thinking “Maybe this time its going to be different… maybe it’s not their fault… maybe they don’t know better… maybe I have it all wrong… maybe it’s all my fault?” Eventually something may snap… things may get out of control…. you may either get depressed, or have a violent outburst.
Socrates said that “The unexamined life is not worth living”. It doesn’t matter if you’re a muslim or a jew, a christian or an egnotsic, or a Buddhist… Ultimately, you’re part of the human race. Its your job to take care of ourself, examine your feelings and protect your heart. Don’t continue being the victim of your misery & oppression, your hurts & your angry reactions. Examine your feelings in a loving & compassionate way, face & embrace all of yourself in a sacred manner & in celebration.
Samuel Jakob Kirschner, Voice of The BREAZE
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