I’ve heard that the brain has mini-seizures every day, but we can’t feel them, just like the earth has tremors & mini-earthquakes all the time, that can’t be measured on the Richter scale. That’s how I feel about losing my Self without even noticing it. I made it my life’s practice to notice the loss-of-Self as often as I can, since my life depends on it. I try & find mySelf back as soon as I can, by simply Breathing~Love & Celebrating my MOJOE. (higher power)
Yesterday I had brunch with two friends, and then went to an AA meeting with one of them. It was a very large & crowded meeting, and we could hardly find any seats. No sooner after we sat down, I thought “If I was going to speak, how would I present myself?… I’m not really an alcoholic.” I was going to turn off the volume on my phone when I realized that it was missing. I started to worry about the lost phone and thought that I should run back to the diner & look 4 it. Remembering that I can worry myself sick & lose mySelf & get anxious & depressed, was reason enough to start breathing-love-in-2-the-worry & let-it-go. I was fully present 4 the meeting, listening & enjoying the honest & inspiring share of the speaker, and when the meeting was over, I went back to the Diner & found my phone -:). While I can count on losing mySelf daily, I can also find my Self back. I feel grateful 4 my practice & celebrate it as a blessing.
“Hi, my name is Jakob & I’m a grateful worry-O-holic in recovery. I lose & find mySelf daily, and feel blessed to celebrate one breath of sobriety at a time -:)” I appreciate the recovery movement, as one of the most courageous & authentic movements 2 better humanity & heal the planet today.
Samuel Jakob Kirschner, Voice of The BREAZE