Angels not just in America...

This morning all I need to do is my Breaze practice, write some morning notes and answer email, sign my new lease, and go to Broadway to see a seven hour production of Angels In America. 

I’m excited about the show, and the weather couldn’t be any nicer. As I’m walking to Madison Square Park, to have a bran muffin, banana and tea, and share some with the squirrels, I bump into a man standing near the entrance of my building, with a lost look in his eyes that spells trouble to me, and triggers my LOH (loss of humanity) trauma, putting me on high alert...

I notice my PTS (post traumatic stress) rising. My body contracts, and I hold my breath. My mind goes into a full fledged attack story that spells - danger. “Be careful, this man could hurt you...”. I slow my breath down with the intention to take care of myself, BSL (Breathe-Self-Love), and make more space. I open my heart just a crack, having compassion 4 my reaction and a heart-4-now. In no time, I feel calmer, clearer, more at ease & present... I continue on my morning walk. I’m OK. 

There’s no need to think anymore about what just happened. No need to do anything about it, just continue to hold space & flow with the present, enjoy my life, be grateful and celebrate... until the next eruption. Until something else highjacks my attention, triggers my LOH, and deems the situation - dangerous, lost or evil. “54 Palestinians are killed in Gaza while a festive opening of the US embassy ceremony is going on in Jerusalem... “, “A nasty remark my president makes about the media with a lost & evil look in his eyes... “, “Two people in the bus getting into a fight about space that turns disturbing, racial & ugly... “, and my knee jerk reaction always screaming - "What should I do about this ?" 

I've been burned so many times before, reacting & playing judge, holding my breath and closing my heart all the way into an anxiety attack... abandoning my self and losing my humanity yet again...

I’m a Breathe-Self-Love-healer, and an artist-of-living-in-the-present. I want to help you & me not suffer in vein and get depressed over anything that triggers your LOH, and can turn evil. I'm a living proof that you can turn loss in 2 evil (e v i l as in l i v e spelled backwards) against yourself. Having the joy you were born with killed, anticipating your life strangled out of you in terror...

But I'm also a living proof that you can breathe and dance with your loss, heal your lost humanity in the present, with conscious loving breaths. Find your way back to your inner garden of Eden, and feel the joy you were born with, in a sacred manner and in celebration, championing your unworthiness & letting go of your survivors guilt... Having fun with the process and and turn it in 2 theatre & living art. :)

I saw the new and amazing production of Angels in America on Broadway. Seven hours divided into two shows of the latest theatre can offer. A brIlliant production. However, I could hardly sit through it. The darkness was too overwhelming for my body to sustain. As someone who has gone through the AIDS era and survived it against all the odds, I wish I could breathe, move & dance through it. As I'm writing this there is a news-break about a school shooting in Texas. I'm wondering if killing children in schools is the new crisis in America? A 21st century Re-enactment of LOH, the Loss Of Humanity? 

#HumanUp. Make your life matter & be an angel of your lost & found humanity... not just in America, but all over the world 

Samuel Jakob Kirschner

 

Honor Your Loss, Celebrate Your Life

When we lose the joy we were born with, it can feel like the loss of our humanity, the loss of our soul, the end of our world. When this loss is dishonored, not processed and unhealed, it can turn into terror. A Self-terror that can terrorize our loved ones & the world. 

No matter how deep your loss and how devastating, you can heal and find the joy you were born with, in the graceful pace of the breath, and in the compassionate pulsation of the heart. I'm a refugee of humanity, practicing healing the loss of my soul, moment by moment, breath by breath. 

Come and HumanUp. Breathe-Self-Love and and find refuge in the breath. Feel like a whole human and make your life matter again. Turn the loss of your world into a sacred celebration of your life. It’s what the world needs more than ever now... love, sweet love :)

 

Samuel Jakob Kirschner, Voice of the Breaze 

 

The End Of The World

(I just heard the president's announcement about pulling out of the deal with Iran...)

Alone in the park I feel my daily dose of loss, of humanity, of love, of my soul, of myself...

It always feels like the end of the world ...

I have no desire to think about it, speak of it, scare others, spread drama to get sympathy or to rally support...

I just want to take care of myself, human up, feel whole again and return to the present of my soul...

I play some fabulous music, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cklrerugm9o  slow my breathing down, open my heart and breathe with more ease....

I inhale kindness through the nose... and exhale compassion through the heart... 

I honor my loss, make more space, and have a heart for now...

Being one with the breath, I walk with grace, and ask for the blessing of my higher power...

I now celebrate the beauty of my soul, in the midst of the end of the world...

 

Samuel Jakob Kirschner, Voice of the Breaze.